Need a Paradigm shift

Being a cheerful lady who is willing to live a happy and successful life....as she believes God has blessed her abundantly...she came up in life after a lot of struggle through the grace of God she is now "content" with her life and happy with what she has got....feeling blessed and very proud of her husband and her entire family...she has a good job and she is in a good position now etc...what more can she expect?

She is known and appreciated as good cook, a person who does good art and crafts, person who is appreciated for her dressing sense, caring, understanding, shares a motherly love, called as Mathaji (mother)..known for her boldness, fights for others growth and recognition, stands firm for her rights etc....carrying a smiling always... 

However everyone has a question...is she really happy? A life without a child is useless and does not have any purpose of life....she excels and explores her hobbies, logs in and does office work even after working hours etc...but people say all that is because she doesn't have kids...she need to spend her time....as she doesn't have other commitments....all these are questioning their appreciations for her talent!!!! Is she cooking to spend her time?? is she working after office hours to spend her time? Is she loving others because she doesn't have loving kids.

Need a paradigm shift: 

How can she prove the world that...she is waiting on the Lord for His blessing...how can she tell everyone that she still holds faith in God....and till that very day God will lead her...all these are out of scope for her because people are already judgemental....they r not going to check with her to understand her feelings....even her family now thinks that she is not praying as she seems to be careless about this.... 

What say to the world about her feelings.....just a gist of her thoughts and feelings before you judge:

After every menstrual periods..her relay/race starts for the month...starts with full of expectations.....

first week she does all her household work without fear...she feels light in her body....keeps herself busy so that she forgets her worries...happiness everywhere...

second week onwards she doesn't want to do heavy jobs, doesnt want to lift anything heavy, strain too much... eat less spices...because she believes she might get pregnant anytime...

Third week slight happiness springs....symptoms seems to be as expected..all in a dylamo...but even knowing the truth, she is not able to accept the fact that it's the same for all other ladies..everyone has the same symptoms on the third week after periods....

Then fourth week she walks slowly...lying down on her bed in correct position that her stomach is not hurt....doesn't want people to push her....not ready to rush for anything...feels breathlessness. ...blotted stomach....to add fuel to the fire, atleast one person will be eager and checks her about the blotting....she refrain herself from doing any work at home as she is pregnant....

Then suddenly she starts feeling pain in her legs...tired...some hormonal changes...along with mood change which results in behavioural change finally on THE day...it stains....then she cries hiding herself from others...doesnt want to show the world that something is hurting her....a feeling of failure, disappointment etc...she feels sad for a day within herself ... then pats herself and says to herself...cheerup lady....you are a special creation...only you can handle this situation and moves forward with a smile  expecting a new dawn...getting ready for the next relay.

How long????will God who sees her pain will delay....what will be His reply to the one's who mock at her. What should she reply back to the people who ask for good news? Will God answer her prayer...? does she deserve to become a mother? ?? SOON there is going to be an END.